Could you … Love Me?

What is love? You can feel it. And we all hope to find that one special person that does make us feel it.

But, can you See it? Can you see it in my face?

What could I do so you will see it in my face? Does the way I felt when I made this picture come through? If so, can you tell that when I did it, I was not in love?

So, to me, feeling it is easier than seeing it, even in my picture.

Style Card:
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LAQ – Noelle
Hair: FABIA – lILAK (gift)
Hairbase: Izzie’s – Baby Hairs
Hair Wings: Shi – Odette
Jumpsuit: Scandalize – Amara
Eyes: Ikon – Eternal
Shadow: AE – Blue Fairy
Mouth Tat: Carol G. – Love Me

The day after

Would you be my Valentine?

The Happy Dance

Kacie did her happy dance all around the room. How could he have known just what would make her happy? She loved the pinks and reds of her room. Puggly sat on his chair and stared at her in disbelief. The balloons danced with her as she twirled and posed in the room. She heard his footsteps in the hallway. The door knob turned. And as he entered the room, she held out her heart and smiled.

But, then:

The Angel watches and thinks,

Easy come easy go!
I’ve been told, by someone in the know,
That men whose hearts, as everybody knows,
Are cold,
Can only love the ones that run and hide
And can’t be told from hot or cold.

Can this be true?
That hearts are blind?
And cannot see or hear
The tender kind?

How sad that is, if this be true.
For much is lost
In missing those of us
They held while missing you.

And finally,

The Style Cards:

Valentine Style Card

Earrings: Kunglers – Finrod
Hair: Exxess – Cookie
Jumpsuit: Giz Seorn – Corina
Shoes: N-core: Donna
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LAQ – Noelle
Eyes: Ikon – Eternal
Set: Boudoir – Valentine

The Angel

Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LAQ Bento – Noelle
Gown: Scandalize – Britney
Wings: Blueberry – Oakley
Earrings: EarthStone – With Love
Necklace: EarthStone- With Love
Eyes: Ikon – Frost

A VALENTINE ANGEL

On this special Valentine’s day, Kaciee sees, An Angel

As she shimmers on her cloud of bliss, spinning and twirling, her dance of joy.

Her eyes bright with love, she pauses in her dance, to gaze, enchanted, by the spinning Earth. She feels two souls waiting to touch and her heart sings of romance.
For an Angel is … Love, you know.

So on this very, very special day she plucks one feather of her heart and watches it float down. It spins and twirls, like her dance, until at last it touches one and then the other. Eyes meet and love is born.

This oh so fragile gift of love Given in the hope  that it might reveal the joy in them that she now feels. Hearts merged,. Secrets shared. Connections made, Life is made more because of each other.

But oh do mortals ever really understand this gift from Angels? This most precious gift of love must be tended, like the flowers in her garden, nurtured with tenderness, watered with tears of joy, weeded to keep out intruders. Kaciee knows that this bond is as fragile as a gossamer spider’s web, so easily torn, so easily ripped apart. Will they keep this precious gift of love and hope?

Only time will tell.

(I bet you thought I would never get to this.)

STYLE CARD:

Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LAQ Bento – Noelle
Gown: Scandalize – Britney
Wings: Blueberry – Oakley
Earrings: EarthStone – With Love
Necklace: EarthStone- With Love
Eyes: Ikon – Frost

No Color

Where had the colors of her life gone?
She was devoid of feeling.
What was a life with no color?

She sat quietly.
Thinking of the joys in her life.
Maybe the memories
Would fill her soul
With color.’

She was aware of a warm happy glow
And she felt,
Slowly,
So very slowly,
Her joy came back.
And
With it the color.

Style Card
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LAQ – Noelle
Eyes: Ikon – Eternal
Hair: Exxess – Cookie
Jumpsuit: Scandalize – Natasha
Shoes: N-Core – Donna

This is how I really feel

Angst
I am so alone.
I can still sense the others,
See the colors, hear the laughter,
But the wires must be down.
I have been disconnected.

I have this ache
In my heart
And I can not make it go away.
Where did it come from?

I am empty inside,
Only this ache.
Will I ever learn?

My beautiful magical forest
Has disappeared.
Now, the dull black and brown of winter
Fits my mood.
Bleak and barren
The icy wind howls … and it’s me.

I feel blown away by this cold cruel wind.
I swirl and swish past hearts turn frigid.
I am all alone.

I am drowning in my own misery,
Reaching out for anyone
To save me from this ocean of despair.

Dante’s Inferno was nothing compared
To this woefull angst that I have made
From my thoughts alone.

Worry and anxiety throw me once more
Into the depths of despondency.
The walls are unscalable.
All hope has fled.
I wallow in the melancholy
Of this murky colorless mess.

Can anyone break the ice
That holds my heart imprisoned,
Imprisoned with thoughts
Of what could have been?
Will the Spring thaw this frigid pain?

The warm sunshine of all love
Is hidden in the shadows of loss.
All the beauty of summer gone,
Will it ever return?
Or am I to live forever in this
Cruel gloom?

I ache for the the new birth of Spring,
The sprouting time with its shoots of hope,
The bright colors of new lives born,
My magical forest surrounding me once more
In its tender, hopeful embrace.

I long for hope,
For love,
For sunshine again.
Please, someone
Find the break
And connect me again.

Kaciee

HEADS OR TAILS

Of course it’s Heads! How to chose? Which one is best? How many do I need?

Style Card:
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LeLutka – Simone
Skin: Glam Affair – Caprice
Outfit & Tail: Essence – Up to you
Hair: Tram – GO127
Eyebrows: Glam Affair – Sia

I really love this LeLutka Simone Head with the Glam Affair Caprice. For now this is my favorite.

I do have a few (4 heads, LeLutka, Catwa, AK, And LAQ) Going Mesh is expensive for sure. And it has taking me quite a bit of time to figure it all out.

I do not just use the head or body we get. So even the same head and body can be different each time.

I love that by just changing the pose, the color background, you can use the same head and skin and still look different. This one really is my favorite.

Now I’m feel a bit sleepy so here is the last one.:)

I totally  love the outfit, the color and the fit.

Style Card:
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LeLutka – Simone
Skin: Glam Affair -Caprice
Jumpsuit: Scandalize – Natasha
Shoes: N-core – Donna Glass
Necklace: TDRF #037
Earrings: Random Matter – Sarrah
Bracelet: Kunglers – Gislaine
Bracelet: Kunglers- Yennefer
Hair: Mina – Arwen

So between all the heads and the skins and the clothes, sometimes I feel like I am on a Roller Coaster and so here it is.

THE ROLLER COASTER

Life is like a roller coaster
It speeds along on its own track
and we can not change it

It soars to the highest high
and then plummets to a low
lower than you had ever thought possible.

You start out really slow
wondering it its going to be worth it
and then
it starts slowly up this steep track
and just as you reach the top
And you feel all the feelings you have been searching  for
exhilaration, adrenalin speeding in your body
even faster that the coaster
But
Then you see over the top
down into nothingness
And you are finally afraid
very afraid

Life is like a roller coaster
Speeding along its own track

It starts slowly
leaving you wondering
If it will all be worth it

Soon it’s going faster and faster
climbing up a steep track

The fear turns into all the
Feelings
You have been searching for.
exhilaration and adrenalin
rush through your body
Faster than the roller coaster

And just as you reach the top
and peer off into nothingness
You are afraid
Very afraid

By Kaciee

 

 

 

 

Hair today, Hair tomorrow

I love hair and oh what a difference it makes.  I’m still lost in mesh but I came up for a breath for Hair!

Style card:
Head: Lelutka – Simone
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Skin: Glam Affair – Luminay
Hair: Truth – Cheri

 

Two pictures with the exact same mesh body, mesh head and mesh skin. The only difference is the hair.

Style card:
Head: Lelutka – Simone
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Skin: Glam Affair – Luminay
Hair: Truth – Elie (August gift)
Jewelry: PM – Audrey (August gift)

I just love the Truth August gift. If you are not already in his group, do it now. Each month you get a new hair with All the colors! There is a cost to get in but you make it back the first month.

I’m still swimming in mesh, but maybe it’s actually worth the trouble.

 

HOPE

When hope has fled and it’s light gone out. Remember, up there somewhere, an angel is watching and dreaming with you, that things will turn out ok. This is my Angel.

Style Card:
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LeLutka – Simone
Skin: Glam Affair – Luminay
Hair: monso – CreamyMami
Romper: Maitreya – Lyne
Wings: CW – Paraiso
Tiara: B@R – Cisne wedding Tiara
Eyes: LeLutka – Simone
Shoes: N-Core – Donna Glass

 

And wonder of all wonders, I got a new dress! Well, its a romper but I love it. Maybe the days of no clothes is done and I will again venture out in my beautiful mesh that no one but me can see. To others, they gasp and turn away. The floating brain and eyes head is something you don’t want to look at too long. 🙂

Obsessed? What now?

Yes, we all want to look unique but I wanted to look like the picture from Glam Affair Luminay. I used the same parts but I looked nothing like Her. I started over. New Maitreya mesh body, New LeLutke Simone, Glam Affair Luminay and I even found the hair from tram. I am close but still not close enough.

Style Card
Obsession
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LeLutka – Simone
Skin: Glam Affair – Luminay
Hair: tram GO127

Style Card for
Purple Dreams
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LeLutka – Simone
Skin: Glam Affair – Luminay
Hair: Turth – Kare

Innocence
Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: Catwa – Catya
Skin: Glam Affair Felicity
Hair: Truth – Cheri
Shape: Catwa – reshaped by me

Mesh must have been made just to push us as far as we can go. I have actually fallen off the edge into – “Oblivion”! My life in ruins. I see others with beautiful heads. How, how did they do it? Well, there is nothing I can do, but, crawl out of valley of despair and plog on. (Oh and by the way, I still have not gotten any clothes for my beauty.)

 

 

 

 

Too much Mesh?

Body: Maitreya – Lara
Head: LAQ – Gaia – Maxine
Hair: Truth – Cheri
Top: Rebel Hope – Megan
Pants: Maitreya – Byzantium
Eyes: Ikon – Eternal

It seems that once I got started on mesh, I became obsessed. So many choices.  LAQ, AK, Catwa, Lelutka, and even more! And, to make matter worse, you can add skins and shapes and well too many to mention.

 Body: Maitreya – Lara
Shape: Catwa Bento – reshaped by me
Head: Catwa
Skin: Glam Affair – Felicity
Hair: Truth – Cheri
Eyes: Ikon – Eternal
Flowers: Lybra – Lilium

For weeks I worked. I had no mesh clothes and all the pictures wore the same or none!. I did manage to get hair. (mmm, hair, you have to love it) Who knew that hair made such a difference? Each new hair settled on the top of all heads and new pictures must be made. Will I never learn? Is enough ever enough?

CATWA, BENTO, GLAM AFFAIR,TABLEAU VIVANT

I can not even keep the names straight. Which to choose? So, to mesh or not mesh, the first question, I have been thrown into the ocean of mesh. And as hard as I try to swim out, it is impossible!  So beware. Be careful of the wave of mesh. You just may step in and never get out.

 

To mesh or not to mesh

That was the question and it has taken me a very long time to decide and then even longer to do. The donald said “Nobody knew health care could be so complicated.” and that was me with mesh. I saw everyone with their beautiful mesh heads and bodies and I thought, how hard could it be? Well, for me, it was really hard. I read blogs, articles and watched how to videos and still nothing worked the way I had hoped.

This was my latest attempt. And, to me it’s the best of all that I tried.

 

Body: Maitreya
Skin: Lelutka – Simone
Hair: Tableau Vivant – Teri

LeLutka Simone
Maitreya Lara
Glam Affair Luminay
Ikon  Eternal
Truth Kara

Head: AK Bento – LuLu
Hair: Truth – Cheri
Top: Rebel Hope
Leather pants: Maitreya – Skinny pants

So, what is the answer? Do we mesh or not? Well, I did it but I still don’t know why. If you go anywhere most will not see you, or worse yet they see you naked. All that work for what? It does not look like the Me that was. So, a new me. Was it worth the time and effort? I still don’t know. At least it kept my mind busy. And for me that was a joy. You will have to decide for yourselves.